Shalimar Bennington

Keep on spreading the news..

2009-11-15T16:35:00.001+08:00

Spreading the newss....

2009-11-12T21:03:00.001+08:00

Spread the news!!

2009-11-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

In need of dancers, interested? just leave your name and contact number to the email address stated above. The auditions will be held on the 22/11 and 06/12, date and venue is to be advised.

Natalia's 1st B'day Party

2009-07-28T12:09:00.007+08:00

On the the 12th July 2009
Venue - Home in Mata-mata

Princess of the day

Princess With Mommy =)

Supermodel to be =p

The Birthday Cake

Beloved Grandpapa..

The Three Mousketeers~

Zul, the pro =) The one who does the magic.

Me wit office colleagues

The glamourous Spendet Gurls!

Natalia striking a pose =p

With my Life and Death bestfriend. Bespren poreber!!!

Radar

2009-07-17T21:43:00.002+08:00

Check out her latest video.. Love it! Something different =)

The Abs of my dream...

2009-07-17T19:54:00.004+08:00

These photos are from Britney's 2nd show in Stockholm . Love the abs! This is what I'm talking abt! ~ but I'm not even close =p She must have did millions of tummy crunches. She's getting hotter and hotter, back to the way she was =) Love u Brit!

Transformers 2 - Rise of the Fallen

2009-07-02T12:56:00.004+08:00

Autobots

Love this car..

It was a really good movie, I love it!! Watched it at the Qlap Cineplax last Wednesday but still, I wanna watch it again... hee and yess Megan Foxx is sooo Hoottt!! The soundtrack for the movie is called 'New Divide' by Linkin Park. Love it!

Natalia's 1st Pre B'day

2009-06-20T20:26:00.005+08:00

Sunday, June 7th, 2009
Venue - Jollibee Batu Satu

She kicked and scratch the cake but still it is ok =) Had lots of fun and natalia's really having fun. Can't believe she's 1 year already. She's adorable, I love her..

2009-05-10T21:29:00.004+08:00

Heys.. I know it's been a while, been busy with work~ haa.. Life's ok.. No changes. Still the same. Natalia's 11 months old now.. wow she IS noty.. Adorable.. She'll be one year next month.

Nowadays I'm so stuck with work and yes the gym. Work, its ok.. As long as it pays me well so yeah got no problem with that but it's the surrounding that's bothering me. The people, So annoying.. No offence yea but I'm just so sick of them. Stupid Losers. Wish I could work with smarter and open people. Please!

Went to Azim's wedding today.. Got some pics here.. but mine actually haa since I didn't get even a shot of the groom but will work on that. =)

Now this is call stress releasing. Yay!! Its works for us well!

2009-01-06T20:20:00.008+08:00

Have you guys ever seen the art of Nick San Pedro? He's so incredibly talented! I love watching this video of him painting Britney in her 'Circus' best. I'm not very artistic, so it amazes me how he can transform a blank canvas into a beautiful painting of Brit!

Stormtrooper rocking out to Circus! Those are some pretty sweet moves! ;)

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hello people.. Happy New Year! I spent my last night of 2008 watching 'The Bedtime Stories' at the Empire Cinema and watching the fireworks. Nice.. It was not that 'fun' but ok lh.. I was imagining myself partying real hard but maybe next year =p

Wishing for a happier life this 2009, went through a lot last year. Lots of ups and downs but that's what makes me stronger.

Happy New Year people =)

Merry Xmas!

2008-12-25T20:10:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas people! Hee~ I like Christmas cause.. I got a one-day off from work! Yuhuu! Work is tiring.. but it's ok as long as it pays me well so yeah.. I'm not gonna complain more. New year's close, still not sure where I'm gonna celebrate mine..

I've watched 'Twilight' last Monday night at the mall cineplex and it's sooo great! Really touching.. I love it! And Edward Cullen is soo cute! My god he's on fire! I love him.. ;') I think I'm soo going to watch the movie again. I don't mind, everything for you Edward..!

Went to the mall today and its so packed! Yea what do you expect its bonus time so yea.. Anyway I bought this book 'New Moon' by Stephenie Meyer. Its a compelling sequel to twilight.. huu I'm obsess. I'm so attached to the book now..

Twilight

The flower on the cover of New Moon is a red and white ruffled tulip. Stephenie Meyer has stated that the flower has no significance to the story, as she had no part in choosing its design.
The title refers to the darkest phase of the lunar cycle, indicating that New Moon is about the darkest time of Bella's life.

2008-12-08T20:28:00.001+08:00

Natalia's 6 month old =)

2008-12-08T15:51:00.006+08:00

Yeap Natalia's 6 month old yesterday.. Now she's able 2 turn (so it's hard to dress her up), she respond when you call her and she's old enough to eat. She's learning more each day.

I Lovee her.. ;')

Circus is finally released!!

2008-12-07T12:33:00.003+08:00

Yes finally!! I've been for this moment like forever! It was released on the 3rd of dec ( her 27th b'day ). Her 2nd single 'Circus' was also released. The video's great. Can't wait for my copy.. It hasn't arrive yet;'( But I've heard all of the tracks from the album. My fav are circus, from under, shattered glass, unusual you, amnesia and my baby. I'm just so madly in love with you brit..

Britney celebrated her birthday at G-A-Y in London, and here's some new exclusive pics to share with you.

Wish I was there..

Another boring weekend

2008-11-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

Hey.. yeap this is another boring weekend. I'm not going back 2 Lumut again, maybe next week. Had my dinner at The Arch, Gadong. The went straight back home. Yeap I know its boring.. heh but yea. Was invited to a birthday party. But I'm not in the mood of partying ryte now.. I'm planning to hit the gym tomorrow.. huhh really working hard here..

Got good news here.. Britney's new album cover and track list are finally released!! Her next new album 'Circus' will be release on the 2nd of december ( her 26th b'dy) can't wait..

Doesn't Britney look LOVELY on the cover?! SO CUTE!

And here are the tracks!

1. Womanizer
2. Circus
3. Out From Under
4. Kill The Lights
5. Shattered Glass
6. If U Seek Amy
7. Unusual You
8. Blur
9. Mmm Papi
10. Mannequin
11. Lace and Leather
12. My Baby

Bonus Track:
13. Radar

Her next single will be 'Circus'!! I lap you Brit!!

Bored

2008-10-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

Heyss.. This weekend is a boring one. Heh! Didn't get to stay in Lumut since no one's going back. So yea~ I spent my Saturday night sleeping.. And my Sunday sleeping, eating and working out at the Fitness Zone. Fitness Zone, huu.. My favorite place for now... Trying to get back to shape.. Uhuu~

Guess tat is all.. Kinda blank ryte now.. Byess!

A Letter To Britney

2008-10-24T13:11:00.003+08:00

Dear Britney,

I’m writing this letter because I feel the need to give you something that you can take inspiration from, since you’ve given me so much over the time that I’ve been your fan. I’ll always be there to support you as an artist, but beyond that, you have my support in every facet of life – as a performer, a mother, and most importantly, a person. This is my attempt at showing you how much I appreciate everything you’ve given me, and how your qualities, both positive and negative, have inspired me in all walks of life.

I’ve been through my share of problems over the last few years. I’ve struggled coming to terms with my sexuality, and with that, struggled to find the self-esteem and confidence I need to be the best person I can be. I always feel like people are judging me, ready to pounce on every mistake I make and kick me when I’m down, just because they can. In that sense, I look at my life in many ways as a microcosm of yours. Only yours is on a global scale for the world to see, which makes it all that much harder and challenging to overcome. And yet somehow, some way, you’ve garnered the strength and courage to pick yourself back up over and over again, despite every obstacle and every person that tried their very best to bury you. To me, that’s what defines a role model.

What I love most about you, and what I feel separates you from most other celebrities, is that you’re real. You’re completely genuine. You’re not painted to be this picture of perfection with no emotions and problems like us “normal” people. While it’s unfortunate on some level that your life has become a media circus and an open book for the world to read, it’s also opened my eyes to what a special person you are, and given me hope that I too can overcome whatever obstacles life throws at me, no matter how insurmountable they may seem. I truly believe that’s one of the reasons your life has been broadcasted in the manner it has – not just as a means of gracing us with your talent as an artist, but giving us all hope that we can achieve anything despite whatever negative forces surround us.

When I see you, I see a beautiful, talented woman who shares the same kind of struggles we all do. I see a woman who loves her kids, and despite the ups and downs, always stays loyal to her family and true friends. Your smile is infectious, your laugh is contagious, and your tears make my heart ache. That’s part of the beauty of being your fan. There’s a connection that I feel to you, a connection that I know many other people feel as well because of the fact that we’ve in many ways watched you grow up in front of our eyes, and feel like we’ve been through the good and the bad right there beside you. I truly believe that there’s no greater fan base in the world than the legion of people who consider themselves your fan. We’re the people that have stuck by you through everything and have only fallen in love with you more because of it.

Next time you read a negative article, or listen to some jackass critic spew hatred and negativity, I want you to think of this letter and think of all the people who you’ve inspired and who love you. The happiness you’ve brought to me and so many others through your music and your life has been invaluable in every way. You, Britney Spears, are a big reason why I’ll always believe in the greater good and I’ll always believe that I can achieve anything if I fight hard enough for it. That alone is worth infinitely more than any negative aspect of your celebrity, because through it you’ve made a difference in millions of people’s lives and that’s more than almost anyone in the world can say they’ve done.

P.S. I can’t wait for Circus, and if you go on tour I’ll be the guy in the front row screaming your name louder than anyone in the stadium.

With love, one of your many biggest fans

Dave

Yeap Dave. This beautiful letter here is not written by me but Dave, one of britney's biggest fan. I'm with you man! I'm touched.

I'm featuring it here to share it with you guys and for the world to see.

Britney's official website is finally renewed

2008-10-23T21:05:00.004+08:00

Finally!!! God knows how many times I've tried to view her page but the same disappointing notice kept on showing that her new website is still otw and bla.. Until the last two weeks (not sure exactly on which day) was suprised that is it soo there! It's way much better then d previous one. You really have to check it out (ones who support her though =p)

These days she's busy with her dance rehearsals and she's back in the studio too. Her new album called 'Circus' is in the "making". So yea.. Can't wait..

Britney hit the studio this week to record some radio promos for Circus and a bunch of other upcoming projects. She sent us these cool pics from the studio to share with you.

Friday night Britney had dance rehearsal to work on a new routine. Britney, her choreographer Andre, and her dance crew had a blast playing around with some new moves.

If you look closely, you'll see that Britney is indeed holding a whip! Looks like her new music video might be even hotter than "Womanizer!"

About myself, nothing much to tell. Been bz with work and assignments..

Happy Hari Raya!!

2008-10-05T00:49:00.004+08:00

Happy Hari Raya people!! Can't believe it's Raya again.. Huh time is moving real fast. Can't really enjoy Raya this year since there's Natalia.. She still need lots of attention. This is her first raya ever. Hee she look so cute in those gowns~ God damn I love her..

Spending my Hari Raya in Lumut but only for this raya holiday. Will be back to work next monday. Going back to mata2 tommorow.. Wish I have longer holidays..

These pictures was taken on the 2nd day of raya.

The Arch

2008-09-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

Hey guys.. Had my sungkai today with Liyana & Anisa with the boyfriend at the Arch. It was nice.. Reli missed them since I hardly see them now. So yea.. Reli had fun updating each other. We should always do this guys!! mwahss love yous.. =) Forgot to take some pictures.. Sowie guys ;')

Work is ok.. Tiring but ok.. Still got paid so yea~ haa!!

I can't wait 4 my car.. huu~

Updates

2008-09-19T22:58:00.004+08:00

On the 15th we had our sungkai at the Riverview Hotel Restaurant with Alex and the wife.

Me & Cuzy Lifah

We sure were having fun! Plus d food was marvelous =)

On the 16th I had my sungkai with some of my office colleagues at the RBC..

Wandy, Sham, Budin, Buzar, Hana & Waty

Me, Lifah & Fai

Sham, Wandy, Budin & Buzar

Sham & Wandy enjoying their food

Budin, Me, Ka Ernie, Ka Waty, ka Zu, Ka Roy & Ka Kam

Too bad not all of the staffs could make it..

2008-09-19T22:33:00.003+08:00

Hey hey..!! I'm good good~ Just got back from Qlap cinema. We watched 'Babylon A.D.' The movie was ok lh.. But not that super duper good. We had our sungkai at the Fratini's gadong. The food was yummy~ hee =) There's some pictures here..

Sis, Usu Bb, Me & Cepet at Fratini's

Nadya, Sis, Uncle Z, Me, Cepet & Nurul

Me as the supporting female actress for Babylon AD =p

2008-09-14T10:46:00.004+08:00

Hey ya'll... I know it has been a while, was busy with work.. Hardly got time to update. At last, got time now.. hee~ We muslims are in the fasting month now.. Happy Fasting!! Hari Raya's coming.. huu can't wait. All of my Hari Raya's cloth are perfectly designed so yea.. uhuu~ That's why I love Hari Rayas.. =p

Had my sungkai yesterday with sis n aunt from lumut. Then spent the night shopping.. We went to all of the Hua Hos in Brunei.. Daa~ no lh just the one in Bunut, Sengkurong and Kiulap. Yeap2 had lots of fun! Got some photos here.. and yes let me jz update u wit these photos from the previous events you've missed (eseh!)

DQ, Yummy!!

Me Looking all red on this red couch. Couldn't afford it so having my pic taken on it should be ok! haha!

Me and Sis at Bro Abg's Wedding

A for Apple!!..

2008-07-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

Called LCB to ask how's my assignment doing. Alhamdulillah I got an 'A' ! I'm so grateful.. Still I got my exam coming this September since I didn't get to sit for the exam last June. Huu~ Study~ That's what I must do.. Still hoping for the very best to come..

Back To Work

2008-07-21T21:12:00.003+08:00

Yeap I just started working today. My first day was ok, just need some refreshing hee =) Missed my colleagues.. Mwahss! haa dunno what else to say. Kinda blank right now cause I'm Tired... Hee Going to take my rest now.. Byess..

Today's my late mother's birthday.. Love you mom.. Though you're not with me now but you will always be in my thoughts. Miss you.. ;' )

My Art

2008-07-17T22:24:00.003+08:00

I didn't go anywhere today but yea to the bank. Just 2 d bank.. Boring~ Wish I could say, today I ride a Rollercoaster! A big one! haa..

Yesterday Liyana gave me this picture as a comment in Friendster;

Its done by me and Nurul but mostly me lah he =p. Can't remember when was this but maybe somewhere in January cause we were having our exam on that time. hee! Was suppose to study but~ haa I'm such a good artist.. I know..

I miss the past. I was living a dream. Didn't see it coming. Really hope that I could turn back time. Sigh~ Now I can only hope for a better future. Amin..

Red, my red hot lover!!

2008-07-15T21:53:00.004+08:00

Went to Kiulap Mall's cinema to watch Hellboy II. Man it was soo gudd! The movie treated me really2 well.. heh. And yes I love u Red!! hah i like~ he's not that cute, come on he's red.. But damn he's a man. Guys that's what I call man! haa I don't mind going out with him uhuu.. Went 2 Coffee Zone Kiulap last nyte and lepak2 lh.. heh got nothing else to do. I mean u knw Brunei there's no where else to go. Wish there's night clubs here.. hee Sure you'll be seeing my face every night.

Can't resist that body man.. Oh my reddy~ ehee...

Me and Red! Yea right~ haa =D

Today's our Sultan's 62th b'day.. Happy B'day Sultan!!

Cuzin Abg's Wedding

2008-07-13T20:47:00.003+08:00

Today's my cousin abg (Amy Fairuz)'s Wedding. Congrats bro!! It was fun but hot~ huu I wonder why here, in Brunei we don't have winter heh i mean it's always summer.. Heh forget it but I still have fun. After breakfast me and sis went to the salon first and for the wedding yea we really dressed up heh! What can I say I just enjoy dressing up and looking good~ ahah! I Get to meet my cousins.. yea.. Really missed them. Here's some photos from the wedding.

The Spendet Girls

Wit Sista

Me!!

I Lotus

2008-07-12T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hellooss! My bestfriend Sherry, came all the way from Tutong to meet me. yea.. Tx Sher! She skipped school just to meet me. I'm impressed! We stayed home the whole day, watching dvd and eating~ heh! Love you darling.. =)

Had dinner in I Lotus with family and the models from Nad's Collection Boutique. The food was nice but not the service. It was a bit slow. Get to see my beloved sis again. We've done lots of talking already. Updating each other. Still, to be continued tomorrow. Not enough bh.. heh! Here's some pictures of us really2 having fun =D

Nice~ Had a really great time!

2008-07-11T22:36:00.003+08:00

Went out for breakfast with my aunt, nadya and bby natalia. Spent most of the morning in the boutique. I bought one of the dress from the fashion show, so does pey2. But now the dress is still in the boutique cause it needs to be alter and stuff will collect it on sunday morning. Oh yes my cuzin abg, will be married this sunday. I knw~ And I'm soo gonna be wearing my new dress yess~ heh! cant wait.

By twelve, went back home and spent the rest of the day surfing the internet and watching dvds.

Today's my usuteh's b'day.. Sowie darling got no photo of you. I knw i'm such a bad niece haa. Nway, Happy Birthday!! Mwahss!

2008-07-09T22:39:00.003+08:00

Went to the mall and watched "Get Smart". It was so damn funny! I can't stop laughing heh! Watched it with Liyana and the boyfriend. It's a good movie reli~ To those who haven't watched it, well you should.. Yes and my boyfriend 'The Rock' has his role in the movie too though you won't like him there but he's still hot..! Love him! And yea Anne Hathaway is hot too.

Get Smart

Seeing Liyana and the boyfriend, honestly yes I'm jealous. How I miss being in a relationship. Ya know I'm the type of person who needs to be in a relationship and that has to go babe! Need to learn to be independent. =D

Went to Lcb yesterday for the Gala Night meeting. Insyallah I'm going to perform again this year yeah! I'm back~ I really miss it.. Can't wait..

1st Fashion Show Of Nad's Collection Boutique

2008-07-06T22:01:00.008+08:00

Yeap it was held in Kiulap. I'm not really good in explaining the location so yea.. Heh! It was great. I get to meet my lost and found best friend named Zaky. Haa! It's been a while since we last met. Miss him! Ok lets just forget about him and lets just focus on the show ( Sorry Zaky but you're not the topic for today, not yet =p ).

This Nad's Collection Boutique is owned by my aunt. She's Noryani, think she'll prefer to be known as Noy. She had a small tailor shop which was located at her place in Mata-mata before opening this Boutique. For this fashion show there are six models altogether. I don't knw their names, haa I'm just not good in memorizing names. The clothes worn was design by Zaky and Lexy so of course lh lawa.. They design for me too bah so indirectly I'm saying that the clothes I wore is all lawa.. ahaa! of course~ I do design but only for myself, how selfish of me.. No lh I just don't feel like designing nowadays.. Blum ada ilham haa!

Think that's all for today. It was fun and everybody did a great job. Yea~ Here's some pictures for you 2 c~

The one in the middle is Noy, the owner.

The models

Noy and the models

Lexy, me and zaky

Me and the Blackdancers.

Today's Someone's B'day. This someone is so special that the name can't be shown here. To you, Happy Birthday..

Hot Mama's B'day!

2008-07-03T21:20:00.003+08:00

Yeap it's my b'day today.. heh d whole day was ok.. Did something crazy.. Cnt talk abt it here.. heh! Bt so far ok lh.. Went to the salon and got myself a new haircut. Need something new. Brought Natalia along. Her first time in the salon yea!! =) No celebration 4 me this year. Was expecting a surprise party but ok lh.. Stayed at home the whole night, I just spent my time watching dvd. Though there's nothing special but glad that everything went well.

My new hair~

2008-07-02T23:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Lindsay!!

Natalia Shafiqah

2008-06-30T16:52:00.006+08:00

Hey.. I know it's been a while since I last updated. Been busy since I started to work in Takaful BIBD again. It's fun though =) It helps me forget my probs.

I gave birth to a baby girl on the 7th of June. How was it? Don't ask me that.. Don't wanna talk about it.. I feel lucky. Can't believe that i did it.

She's cute ryte.. I love her..

Tomorrow's Agnes Monica's b'day..

Happy B'dy Agnes! Love ya~

Failed

2008-02-15T15:32:00.002+08:00

I got my result already and it's not as satisfying as what I expected. I failed. That is the worst result I ever had. Sure I got scolded, I deserve it. I'm gonna have to do the resets and hope that I will do better. I really have to work hard. I mean really really hard. Huh, I'm really upset. Things happened I just have to do better next time. Got nothing new to share. Guess I will post when everything's better. I'm always praying for a better future.

Results

2008-02-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

Yeap the results will be out tomorrow. Too bad I can't see mine cause I haven't paid all of the remaining balance. Huu.. It's not that I can't pay it all but there's just something I need to deal with first. I really wish I could see it. *sigh*

I will start working this week. huu~ nervous, can't wait too hee~ Money!! That's the most wonderful part. I'm so gonna be an adult. I really miss my old life, I miss performing. I am gonna perform one day after all of this are done.

I've watched 'Kung Fu Dunk' last.. I'm not sure what day ehee =p Yes, this guy from the movie name Bolin Chen. Oh my god he's soo cute! huh got some pictures here..

Now you know what I'm talking about?.. hahaa He's sooo fine... *sigh*...

2008-02-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Lumut. I did have fun =) Last friday we went to Miri, it was ok.. We ate at the 'Dragon Seafood'. Ohh it was soo yummy!! Marvellous heh I just love crabss. I stayed in Lumut since friday after going back from Miri. It's good to be home. Wish I could stay there longer. I'm going back to college again tomorrow. I'm nervous!! :-0 haa. Plus my result will be out on tuesday. God save me~ Hope everything will be fine.

I'm really tired now.. Don't feel like typing. Need to get some sleep. Night..

Happy Chinese New Year!

2008-02-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

Went to the Mall again. Was accompanying my aunt and her daughter. Did some shopping, it was ok.. As always Mall is never empty. But this time no chinese ( I tink so..) haha! I mean it's the Chinese New Year's Eve so yea.. Seen fireworks around. Nice! I'm sure the chinese are having lots of fun ryte now.. haha! Getting drunk and stuff. heh understood. I am half chinese but we don't really celebrate it, like really2.. We just visit our chinese relatives (The ones that is still living in Brunei cause some of them are in Miri and I'm not sure where else.. hehee..). My favourite part is getting the 'ampau'. Haha yes! money bebeh! Mybe we're going to KB this friday to visit our relatives. Hah 'ampau' please..

Got nothing else to say. Feel like sleeping already. Will post again tomorrow. Byes..

Lonely II

2008-02-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

Just got back. Went to Escapade and to the Mall. Enjoyed my dinner, I just love Japanese food. Nice.. Mall, as always never empty. Full with youngsters, couples.. yea~ envy them. How I use to be one of them. My time is just over. Ok, don't wanna cry forever. I just have to move on. I don't know what god has for me in the future. I'm really trying to take it positively. Just need to be strong.

Lonely

2008-02-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

To think I'm so naive How dare you Play with me?

I gave you Heart and soul

Tell me baby, please

Why you screwing With my head?

I don't think You understand

I won't take your

No more

Don't knock on my door

Not this time

Because I recognize

I've heard it all before

Think of all the times That I've wasted

Think of all the times That I took you back

Ain't no way I'll be lonely

I don't wanna Let you back in

Let's just face it (Face it)

Better off alone and I won't turn back

Thought that I would be lonely

I don't wanna Let you back in

Don't tell me How to feel

Or say that You're for real

My mind's made up I'm cool without you

You got no more appeal

Now this girl Don't need no man

Says what she can do What she can

Now I live for me

Boy does that Make you weep?

Not this time Because I realize

I've heard it all before

Think of times You made me cry

You had me so confused

I'm tired of trying

Leave behind this

What's a girl to do

Think of all the times You made me sick

I used to think I couldn't handle it

What you think I'm just another chick?

Messed with me Boy you must Have tripped

What were you thinkin' When you lost my trust?

You had it all now You're left with nothing

Oh baby, now I know you Want my touch

And now you're lonely And you still want me

I'm not as mad as the words above. Upset? Noo.. that's not how I feel ( but maybe a little =p). It's just motivating. I need that. Those aren't my rhymes but I do write ok.. Those are the lyrics for Britney's song called 'Lonely' from her third album named 'Britney' which was released in 2001. Love that album. 2001, hmm I was studying in Sekolah Menengah Sayyidina Othman, Tutong. Still a form 1 student. How did I look like? Hah It's 4 me 2 know and 4 you to find out. But really don't bother to find out, you don't wanna know=p Kinda miss the old days.. How I wish I could turn back time. *sigh* Its you Zy that I miss the most. Miss the times when we used to gossip on the stairs.. Uhuu! Love u woman.

Lonely, that's not exactly how I feel. I still have my friends and family around me. Supporting me, being there for me and accepting me the way I am. I'm not in this alone. Still I don't feel complete. I guess all I need is someone to hold, someone to love, someone who'll love me for me, someone to share my tears and joys with, simply saying all I need is someone special.

Change

2008-02-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

Hello - hello.. heh! just doing ok.. Thank Q god. Done my exam already. Dunno if i'd do good or maybe pass. Damn scared ;'( Hopefully I will. There's just lots in my head. I just can't concentrate in my studies. It's really affecting me. God... The results will be out this week. Huu~ Just hoping for the best ;) N yes I will be working in Takaful BIBD again.. This time as a full time staff or should I say permanent staff. Still studying in LCB though but only as a part time student. My classes will only be in the evenings. So yea.. Hope that I will be a better person. I'm gonna be studying and working at the same time, hope that I could cope with everything

Yesterday was Che Yus's B'day.. Happy B'day Che Yus!!

[Me, Che' Yus & Sis at the Airport, Thailand]

I'm not sure how old she is now.. hah I'm so bad. Ok, she's my mother's younger sister. She take care of me and my sister when my parents and my grandma passed away. We move back to Lumut and stayed there with her and my grandpa of my mother's side. I'm not staying in Lumut nemore cause need to go to college and work. Only return on weekends but my sister is still there. She's working at the BLNG now. Earn lots of cash but a bit stingy. Haha! sorry!! I got tat stinginess from her. Nways, a good woman she is. Love her.

Shalimar Bennington

Wats Up.. Bebehss!!

2007-11-11T08:20:00.000+08:00

Halloo... Hw ya'll feeling?! heh me? nt so gud cz.. cnt tell! haha! Insyallah I'm goin' 2 Jakarta nxweek, got sumting 2 do.. I'm recording my 1st album n yea.. HAHA KIDDING!! oh it would be wonderful if i reli am recording an album. Huu~ my biggest dream.. Wondering if it would ever come true.. hopefully it will. Amin!! Oh how I miss performing so much.. I miss d stage! I miss being nervous! I miss d long hours of practising! Most of all, I miss Danny.. ;'( He's such a wonderful partner.. I dunno working with him, is jz so great cz we always have d same idea, we understand and knw each other reli well so yea.. He's my bestfriend~ I love him!

Wat's new yea.. Noting much, Hari Raya was great had a great tym.. Oh yea I got my hair cut. C!! -->

It is ok bt oh hw I miss my long hair.. heh bt its good lh 4 a change..

Ok tats all 4 now.. I'm soo lazy 2 type.. U knw lh I'm oways lazy.. haha! k tc!!

Hellooss

2007-09-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl.. heh! Evryting is gud thank goodness.. Nuting new.. heh! We went to Miri lst strday nyte 4 a sungkai n 2 celebrate Sis Tinie's B'dy n of course I did do sum shopping. Huu tat's a must.. I cnt wait 4 Hari Raya.. heh! N yes our 2nd semester strted on the 17th Sept.. Having fun in college.. Miss it.. My subjects 4 tis semester are Law, Economics, Accounting and Business Organisation. Stil kinda blank with evryting bt i'll get use 2 it.. heh!

Me and J is still on. Still like tat lh no changes. heh! K tats all I guess.. mwahss!!

Helloo..

2007-09-14T09:45:00.000+08:00

Elow~ Happy Fasting ya'll.. ehee.. Today is the 2nd day of fasting.. Hari Raya Is cuming!! I Love Hari Raya!! Hee.. It's been long since I last posted.. Too bz wit work.. I enjoy working in Takaful.. Tired of course bt its mork 2 fun! I gained lots of experience.. Hmm Lots of tings hpnd.. Life.. Ok 1st, I broke up wit Malek.. He chose tat.. Myb he jz cnt accept me 4 who I am.. Bt so what, ter's lots of btr guys out ter.. U cud love me & accept me 4 who I am.. Nw he's dating tis new gurl. I duno much abt her bt I dn wna knw.. Huu~

I went out wit tis 2 guys tat I knw 4rm Fs.. Tey're gud.. heh bt I'm dating J nw.. I dunno If I'm reli wit him bt ntah ah.. hee bt he reli is sweet~ I nvr met sum1 like him b4.. Huu~ emosi.. ehee! Bt I'm reli sure hw he feels abt me.. bt soo wat. I'm young n hot soo I jz wna enjoy my life! Ehee..

2nd semester is starting nxwk.. Hmm damn I was reli enjoying my holiday.. ahaa!! Bt I missed college alot! huu K tats all 4 nw.. Mwahss!!!

Work

2007-07-19T20:07:00.000+08:00

Yea I'm working nw. I started ysterday. As u all knw, 1st day sucks! I felt so stupid cz I dn knw wat d hell is goin' on bt I'm gud.. 2dy is btr. Ter r lots 2 learn. Ngalih! heh bt its all gud.

I'm nt feelin' hapy lately. Dunno y.. I miss my malek.. hmm.. eheh! I dn reli knw wats bothering me rytnw. Well got a new story, my own czn is dating my x bf. Tey're nt reli dating. She said tat tey're nt 2gther bt can I blieve her? I'm jz reli mad. Wen I ask tem wats reli goin on tey refuse 2 tell. Who do tey tink I am? Tey tink tat tey cud fool me? Shit! I hate tis. Wen I ask him, he said tat she is jz a fren n its me tat he 1s (He's trying 2 win me back) yea ryte~ Yea I knw tat I have my own bf nw bt its jz tat xbf sucks! I hate tem! N i wont be hapy if my x is dating my own cuzin. I mean she's part of the family. Damn! I hate tis. I dn wna talk abt tis. I jz feel fooled. I dunno.. K tis is all 4 nw.. Daa~

Hellooo!!

2007-07-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

Helloosss!! hehe! huhu I knw I hvn't post anyting lately.. was lazy haha! Our results r out oLedy.. I passed bt I jz have 2 reseat 4 my QM. Damn! huhu sad2.. I went 2 watch Harry Potter wit Rosman & Liyana 2dy.. heh it was ok.. Siok lh.. hee.. I was emosi u knw.. ahah I'm owayz Like tat evrytym I'm watching.. haha!

Yes I haven't told hw great was our Gala nyte ryte? Well yes It was soo fun!! haha n I was partying Lyk animal!! ahah! I jz Love parties ya knw.. Cnt heLp it bh.. I hardLy get d chance 2 prty tats y.. haha Long story. Reli it so much fun! N yea I performed.. ahah was reli nervous tat I hardly move.. Bt 4 d dance performance of course Iwas moving so furiosLy haha! Giving my best. Zaky & Boy was ter too of course.. Tey were prforming too. Zaky Luk soo damn hot! haha my bad.. Evry1 tot tat he's my bf (hope so..hehe) Bt yea we act as a couple tat nyte since my guy cnt mek it tat nyte soo yea.. haha.. me & zaky? we hv history ya knw.. hmm will tell nxtym. So d performances went well thnk god! Although we r all nervous bt we're ok.. I'm soo Luving d nyte! haha I dn feel lyk stopping.. haha! I will post sum of our pics 4 tat nyte. gtg bye..

Happy 19th B'day Gurl!

2007-07-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

Helloooo.. eheh! It's my b'day 2day, Happy B'day 2 me~ Hehe bt it dn went as wat i expected. I expect to spend my day preciously wit Mr Malek bt too bad he's nt ter to make it happen. I'm mad 8 him actually bt wat can i do.. Mayb 2day's nt special 4 him. I understand tat he owayz says tat he can't mek it bt can't he jz sacrifice one day 4 me? I mean its nt Like evryday's my b'dy. It's only once in a year. Bt yea noting can change it, it happened. It hurts bt I jz have to accept tat i don mean anything him. Hoping tat i'm wrong. Still grateful 2 have my family arnd me. Nisa n cknoy suprised me. Haha Long story. Lazy 2 tell. haha!! K tats all i guess. Nt in d mud. I'm reli upset wit evrything. Hope tat my Gala Nyte will b great. Amin..

Shalimar

2007-06-19T14:16:00.001+08:00

My Celebrity Look-Alikes

2007-06-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

Happy!!!

2007-06-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

Yea i'm happy!! I met my Mr Malek 2dy after xm wic was held 8 Centerpoint. Although its not 4 long bt ok lh.. Haha! We had a great tym.. I luv him man!! (8 last) heh!

I went to empire cinema juz nw 2 watch Ocean 13.. Its ok bt i slept!! HAha!! My bad.. D movie is slow.. huuuu Bt Brad Pitt's hot.. haha!!

In a Relationship. Again..

2007-06-05T09:52:00.000+08:00

Hy guys!! Hee.. Im okie.. Abit stress from long hours of revising for my cuming xm nexweek.. Reli wory abt it.. Heh yup i'm dating a new guy nw.. Haha! He proposed me on the 28th may 2007 n tat meks May 28th as our anniversary.. Hah! I hope tis relationship will last.. Ya knw me.. Im nt reli serious in love tingy but will try with tis 1. Hee.. Cant help it bh.. Wawa.. K tats all.. daa~

Bitch

2007-05-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

Wats up ya'll.. huhu! Im ok lh as oways.. Bt of course ters ups n downs.. Life.. hah! Know wat i got tis soo hot story!! Ok ters tis gurl or sud i label her as a bitch. hah! She's in d same college wit me. She tinks that she's perfect and all that but daa~ she sucks!! She luvvs 2 talk shit abt ppl! Im 1 of d victim (yea..) Hah! She said tat im annoying n shit. I wouldn't care if she hates me o watever cz hey! I hate u too! Bt wat meks me mad like crazy is tat she's involving my late parents. Wat was she tinking?! She's crazy i knw.. Nobody mess wit my parents.. shit! She says tat d only reason tat they're gone is bcoz i'm annoying. HELLOOO~ Its call fate lh.. Stupid! Dn u go to ugama scool? esen sja pkai tudung bt d fact is she's a bitch! Know wat she slept wit lots of guys.. Bt she always refer herself as a virgin.. aha bitch kn? Kn ucap org bt diri 2 nda sdr. Cian.. And yea she was also wonder y guys tat fall 4 her are mostly old dudesbt nt d muda2 1..ahah! Bitch, tats bcz ur sooo ugly!! Lwa lgi jubur babi kli! WAWA!! Im mean i knw.. she started it! Dn mess wit me bitch.. She also said tat my butt is small n her butt is btr..haha! soo funny! Ku liat jubur ny 2 lgi pipih mcm kratas.. yup my butt is damit bt tone kli ah..heh! Virgin lgi..haaa apakn?

Heeee... nw i feel btr.. Yo bitch, i hate u sooo much! Wit all of my heart, Body n soul, n evry breath that i take and watever lh! Haha!! Tats all 4 now.. Ngalih ngumpat sja.. heheheee!

Heartbroken

2007-04-11T15:53:00.000+08:00

Elow!! Im jz doin' gud thnk god jz reli heartbroken.. haha pity me.. I proposed 2 Z yesterday n he rejected me. I hate him! Im ashame actually.. I mean wat do d guy has tat i dont? I hate Gays!! I hope 1 day he'd wake up n realise hw stupid he was 4 rejecting me. I guess i jz have to move on n start with a new life. Though it hurts soo bad bt we cant force love.. I hope that he'll be happy with him although im the one who's suffering. I reli like him. He's everything that i wanted in a guy. Whatever!! Hey! i can live without him!